I suppose it’s been awhile.

I feel like I’m second. In my work life and my social life. I’ve never been great at socializing being an introvert. It never seemed apparent until this weekend. I just drink or pop a Xanax to relax. I suppose I’m just afraid to face reality. Reality that I’m a failure but somehow keep succeeding. I don’t know why or how I do it. I know that if I put myself into it I’d be just another sheep (pardon the analogy). But really…what’s the point?

Can someone tell me?