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Velcro gloves are your friend!Archive for February, 2008
Fathers.
So I heard from a friend that her father was in the hospital.
This brings back memories. Not really good ones either.
My father was an alcoholic. He drank ever since I can remember. I recall riding down the road with him while he had a Manhattan in his lap – no seat belt either.
Funny. I see the irony in that now. It wasn’t the lack of wearing a seat belt that killed him…
So he wasn’t a bad man in any sense of the word. He was loved by most all that met him. Except for those people that pissed him off. I’m like him that way I suppose…
But he drank for 40 years. Close to a bottle a day. And he drank almost up until the day he died. Even when his liver was shut down – he drank. Perhaps more on that whole story another time.
The tragedy for me is that I feel like I never really got to know him. I suppose that’s not entirely true – I knew a side of him. I never took the time to learn everything he knew. His prowess at being mechanically inclined. His ability to solve a problem. Sure I inherited that from him by DNA. But to have tapped his knowledge and not to have taken the time to do that…
And I never told him I loved him enough.
Never forget that. Ever.
So I’m sending thoughts - good ones – to the father of my friend and to all the fathers that are suffering. It’s my attempt to give others the chance to tell their fathers they love them.
No I’m not getting religious. No I don’t want to start a cult. I just believe that if I do something positive for others – it can’t be bad can it?
It’s probably probability.
So I’ve been thinking. Yes. Again. I do do it from time to time albeit sparingly…
Being in a new job where I get to play with math again, I’ve been thinking more and more about probability. More specifically, unique probability. What does that mean or what does it mean to me? Well let me try to ‘xplain.
For each interaction we have, it has a unique probability. The people we meet, the things we do. Each has it’s own defined mathematical solution: A probability. The probability that I will get hit by a bus tomorrow is defined. Someone, somewhere has figured that out based on a set of data. So it seems logical to assume that the interaction of each individual can be defined as well. If one interaction (you getting hit by a bus) can be defined, can’t other interactions, either physical or personal, be defined as well?
Case in point:
- Recently I’ve met some really interesting people. Those meetings would not have taken place had I not taken the chance on interacting. Chance implies probability does it not? Sure you could argue that because these people did also choose to interact with me then the said probability was 1. However, let’s think about alternate universes where this interaction didn’t take place even though it was initiated in the same manner. That should have an associated probability of interaction. Again however since we don’t really know how many universes there are you can’t begin to define that probability, can you? And if not, then isn’t the fact that this interaction took place a unique probability?
Then I start thinking about transcendental numbers and think “Are these a type of transcendental probabilities’?”
I think too much. Maybe it’s just me. **shrugs**
